RELATIONSHIPS

For me in early adulthood I was in very one way relationships. I took all I could from my family and friends. I then had this group of friends that only took from me.

Now I find the relationships in my life are happier as I am much happier. Notice how I didn’t say perfect. I now get it that perfection is unattainable for me. When I am talking to my and friends I am much more lied back and calm. The fun loving me is there. Being OK with me was my first step in learning to have a relationship. I use to shy away from interacting with anybody as I didn’t value myself and didn’t think I was important enough to spend time with. I still hate the family reunions as everybody wants to hear about what you have been up to and again it’s not important enough.

The relationship I have with me and my body is constantly changing. I am finding this right know as I need to keep extremely good records of my weight, blood pressure, pain, symptoms. The list seems endless but this information is important for proper treatment. I have about 6 different dr’s now so I need to put this in a chart somehow. Right now this is my most frustrating relationship in my life as I am my own best advocate. Sometimes it just seems endless though.

My last relationship I can lump together as virtual and community relationship. 90% of my work is done virtually. I really like it this way, as then I don’t get nerves as much being in meetings. With the community around it is a causal chat of how are you.

Drama as well as chaos and I don’t agree, so I try my best to leave that out of relationships.