Life lessons is a topic that I really haven’t talked about much. Today I want to share me story of addiction.
Next week it will be 4 years that I will be in recovery. When I was 34 years old I began to suffer from some chronic pain that they needed to start treating with narcotics. I also was covering up a lot of my feelings with my use. This almost immediately sent me on a 16 year trip of chasing that pill and high. I don’t want to go into the details but I can till you what it took from me.
It took from me;
- My passion and independence and left me a shell of a person
- Family time. That I will never get back
- Family financial independence
- Trust that others had in me. That is starting to be rebuilt.
- Friendships that I am rebuilding
This definitely is something that I have learned from. I am thick headed so it took several years to realise the damage that I was doing. I was living in such a self absorbed life that I thought all that mattered was me. Building a new life is something I haven’t done alone. I have a huge support team that have helped me alone the way. The most important thing for me about rebuilding my life is that I have my family by myself and I am getting to know me. I am an independent woman that is loving life and love to give back to others.
LIVING IN HEALTH 
Congrats on four years of recovery!
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Thank you. I am amazed at the connection for me between mental health and my using. I must say though that in recovery it is easier to deal with my mental health.
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