EMOTIONS

OCD

What OCD means to me it is by no mean stigma related. I suffer from OCD and these two pictures clearly show how OCD affects me. That look for constant perfection, peaceful, as well everything in place.

Before I get into OCD I wanted to talk about the emotions. When I am stuck in OCD mode I can really become angry, resentful. inpatient. moody. The list can go on and on. Who get’s the brunt of this behaviour is my husband.

So when does my OCD hit. Very simply I am the type of person that needs to control as much as I can in my life. I want things done in my time and the level of order and cleanliness of the house has to be a certain level. These are only two examples, trust me there is so much more. To try and cut back on the OCD with my husband I put the following into place. I can’t clean the house anymore so rather then getting on him about it I have brought in a house cleaner. As for the other example my husband and I have two different senses of urgency to get something done. I have needed to understand that there is my time and his time. He hasn’t asked me to slow down so I have no right to ask him to speed up. If there is something that he is doing he will get to it and doesn’t need my constant reminder.

For me it is important to remember that if I allow it OCD can cause a lot of friction in my relationships and life.