BUSY

WHY ARE YOU SO BUSY

This is a question that has been on my mind for a while. It is at this point that the difficult questions creep in. What are you avoiding? What motivates you to be this busy? Is there anyway it could be different?

For me wrapping myself in this bubble of busyness does protect me from a whole group of people in my life. I stay so busy because I feel needed and valued when I am busy. I am needed and people feel lucky to have me there. They value me while I learn to value myself.

The area I am able to avoid when possible is the time with family and friends. Don’t get me wrong I love them all to pieces. The problem is right now I need to work in this area of my life. I don’t value myself so I feel like I have no true value in these relationships. I feel like I am an outsider looking in. These feelings of insecurity have made these relationships very tense and tumultuous. I so need help in this area.