SILENCE

IS IT TRULY GOLDEN?

This is really hard question for me to answer, I don’t know about you guys. I love sitting in silence when I am by myself or mediating. If I sit here for to long though then I hate it because the focus is on me. It is completely different if I am with someone though, there needs to be constant chatter. Also if I am on meeting and no one in the group is talking I can’t stand the silence and need to start talking. I am know understanding that the reason why I can’t stand the silence is for a couple of reasons. First of all, it leaves me with being aware of what is going on inside of me, and I am just getting use to looking at me so it is uncomfortable. Second of all, if there is silence I immediately think that I have done something wrong. Here I need to remember that I don’t have that I have no control over other people. Finally the silence comes with so much awkwardness that if I talk first then others will follow. I need to get the ball rolling.

I am learning to enjoy the silence no matter where it is found. It is the time to gather myself and just be at peace. Also for me silence puts me in the present so I am not stuck in my head. I have talked to many people about this and most do agree with me. Silence is awkward but in the end it is golden. Enjoy the silence in your lives today everyone.