LIFE AS LIFE

Living life as this is me no masks can make me feel like I am really vulnerable. I try so hard not to let it bother me what other people think of me. I am human and sometimes it just happens. Some days when the mental health is bad I am my own worst enemy. I feel like an alien in my own skin and then then the negative talk kicks in. It seems like I have no control over what I say, my behaviour or my reactions. It is as if I have no filter. A simple comment from somebody I can turn it into you are this awful person that can’t do anything right. Some days I feel like just disappearing.

Thanks guys for listening to my rant. I am trying so hard to just live life one day at a time. When I get into a slump of depression and the old go to of tweaking the medication is no longer a go to for the psychiatrist, I throw my arms up in defeat. The psychiatrist is wonderful it’s not his fault. With the way my kidney’s are functioning right now it is not safe to increase or introduce a new medication. With that being said he has introduced a prn to use as needed when I am finding I can’t slow myself down, or the muscle spams get out of control.

Thanks again guys for letting me vent today. That is why I love this platform so much. Some days I just need to talk about everything going on.